that moment when you make a life-altering decision about your future and your career and you feel 100 pounds lighter because the burden of lying through your teeth about what it is you think you want is finally gone.
i finally grew up and stopped living my life based on criterias. critierias is what got me into this hot mess in the first place.
i will never regret trying to seek after what i perceived to be my dream job. because now that i know it’s definitely not, I can peacefully and truthfully pursue where my natural talents and passions lie without feeling regret and the always “what-ifs” of not trying.
it’s a sweet relief, saying goodbye to “future lawyer Diana.” I’ve never been more proud of myself for going for something and having the courage to admit (after months of self-denial) that it’s not in the cards for me. i have certain characteristics that would have made me a great lawyer - that i know; but i can never live with myself knowing that i don’t love it - that i don’t even like it, and the only reason i am doing it is because i’m settling. just because i know i can do something doesn’t mean it’s “the one” for me.
so it is with great pride, humility, and joy that i say goodbye to law. it has been a wonderful experience and a soul-searching type of journey that we only get a few times in our lives.
i’m at peace with myself, proud of my decision, and more than ready to take the next stage of my life and career head on. it’s complicated, intimidating, and i probably bit off more than i can chew but i’ve never been happier. i’ve so rarely felt so right about something, and that is more than enough to assure me that i’m going to love where i’m headed.
suddenly, life has meaning again.
Gregory Galloway (via jaimelannister)